AFRAID TO FORGIVE CHRIS BROWN
By Mohan Karulkar: I'll admit it. When I saw Chris Brown perform during the Grammys, I made a face and turned to my wife. "I really don't like him," I said to her.
And actually, I said a lot more in my head. "He's sleazy. He's sketchy. He's abusive. He's a terrible influence."
I was a little ashamed when I reviewed the string of choice labels I'd just lobbed at the TV, but I shrugged it off and moved on.
Then I started hearing the rumblings of a controversy. People were upset. People were writing articles with titles like "Do We Have To Forgive Chris Brown?" and "No, We Don't Have To Forgive Chris Brown." (yes, really)
And if things weren't touchy enough, a group of fans tweeted that they'd let Chris Brown "beat [them] anytime he wants." (yes, really, again)
Meanwhile, Grammy Producer Ken Ehrlich has stated that he was rooting for Brown: "I just believe people deserve a second chance. The year he had this year, really brought him back into the public. He really deserved a second chance."
So, who's right? And why does it even matter? It may seem almost irrelevant, since Chris Brown is a celebrity, and our thoughts have pretty much no bearing on his situation or the greater controversy.
Except it isn't irrelevant, because in my experience, our thoughts towards people far removed from us inevitably leak into our thoughts towards people close to us. So over the last few days I've read, thought, polled, and even prayed about it. And I noticed something that I never noticed before:
We tend to believe that when we give someone a second chance, that means we're condoning whatever they did to blow their first chance.
In fact, "Believe" may actually be the wrong word. Maybe it's about fear. Maybe we're afraid that if we forgive someone, people will think we're condoning their actions.
In any case, that kind of thinking takes forgiveness off the table, because even if we conceed that forgiveness is a good thing, as many of the most angry responders to the controversy have done, we could never risk the chance that we might start approving of the crime. Or even the appearance of approval. So don't even ask, because I'm not going to do it. It's not worth it. He hit her, and that's wrong, and end of story.
That's not true in all cases, though, right? If it were, then we'd be disowning our kids, returning our pets, and moving to Fargo. In fact, we can be quite generous with forgiveness -- so long as it won't embarrass us. Mouthy kids? Unloving parents? Unfair parking tickets? Lazy spouses? We're not so embarrassed by that stuff. No one's afraid of their neighbors thinking they condone parking tickets.
But molestation? Domestic abuse? Infidelity? Violent crime? Don't even ask, because I'm not going to do it. It's not worth it.
Well, I'm going to go out on a limb and claim that's a prison. Something we're afraid of (people thinking we approve) is preventing us from doing something we know is right (forgiveness). If that's not bondage, I don't know what is.
So let's be free of that. Say it with me. Free.
Forgiving a bully doesn't mean you approve of bullying. Forgiving a spouse doesn't mean you approve of cheating. Forgiving a company doesn't mean you approve of bad service. Forgiving yourself doesn't mean you approve of your wasted youth.
Forgiving Chris Brown doesn't mean you approve of domestic violence.
If someone else wants to interpret it that way, then let them. Meanwhile, change the world around you through one act of forgiveness at a time. Chris Brown may very well be a bad man; I don't know. But I know forgiveness is a good thing. Why? Because it's been pretty darn good to me.
And I'd rather go with something I know than something I don't know.