HOPE IN THE UNKNOWN
By Tracy Kase: A little over a year ago, I hit what most would call rock bottom. I found myself sitting alone on my bed, tears flowing down my face, with everything in my life completely unknown. I had just confessed to my husband that I had been having an affair with my boss for over two years, and even though he immediately told me he forgave me, I told him I needed time to figure everything out. My job was gone, my marriage was broken, and everyone in my life was hurt by my actions.
Throughout the course of the next few days, weeks and months, it was all I could do to just wake up and face the world each day. I was confused, lonely, angry, frustrated, and broken. I was terrified of my future, because it was all unknown.
But, I did get up and face each day. No matter how hard it was, I confronted the issues in my life with hope. This word -- hope -- became the theme of my life. I began feeling life again, unafraid of facing challenges, because I had hope. I even got the word tattooed on my wrist a few months ago.
It’s been over a year, and while I am still alone on my bed, I have such hope for the future. Today, I am divorced, and I am single. I am working a new job, much different than where I thought life would take me. I am living with my mom and my sister, when I thought I would be living in a big city helping to start a church. My life today is so much different than I thought it was going to be at this point.
But I know that good things will come. I have learned so much about myself, and about the grace of God. I have been left a better person, and I've learned an important thing. When trials come, cling to hope and use those trials as opportunities to learn, grow and seek truth. Every one of us has so much to be hopeful for.